Once again

Im tired of trying so hard anymore, im slow to warm up to people but when i finally do they end up hurting me. Its a relentless attack on my well being. time and time again i put myself out there only to be left with nothing on the other end. Maybe im too slow when it comes to feeling comfortable and I continue to implode in on myself. I blame myself for whats goign on right now. I didnt pay enough attention, maybe i didnt do something. But all i know is that i feel terrible right now and maybe its my own fault, i dunno...
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