A reminder of the past

Today I listened to Rumbleseat for the first time in a while.
I forgot how much I love listening to this album

I used to have it on my old computer but I never transfered it over
Now my old computer is dead and now no Rumbleseat
I suppose eventually I will buy it from here...
http://www.noidearecords.com/bands/releases/rumbleseat_discography.php
But its Christmas time and I gotta buy gifts
This album reminds me of living with Donovan and Yokev
Such good memories...

I suppose

It has been quite some time since ive posted in here. I can name a few reasons why, getting hired at Timecycle has changed my life a whole lot. Im so much more happy with myself now that I have a normal sleep schedule, interesting days at work, and most of all I am much less tired.
I cant really say Ive been productive at all besides just working my ass off and loving my dog.
Oh and I finally won an alleycat recently, sooooo happy!
I think pictures are much better

The Winds of Change

Its starting to happen everyone, its all starting to change for the better. September 08 shall be a very memorable month for me with various nonsense going on. First up is the move to a different company, timecycle. Ive put trying to get a job there on the back burner for a long time and recently I put my best effort in trying to get a job there just so that I can feel secure when january rolls around and all the good work at one hour dries up. This past friday I was asked to work for Timecycle and of course I said yes, it may mean a paycut at first but in the long run it is beneficial to my cause. Secondly is the Scumbag Cup, this is my first real attempt at throwing a race on my own and its a huge one. The Scumbag Cup consists of 6 races in 2 days and you can only figure it takes a lot of preparation to setup something like that. Lastly September involves my 21st birthday which I know is going to be epic on my liver.

Honestly these arent really changes excpet the first one but they are little steps towards change. I would like to have more responsibility in the messsenger world, ya know more contacts and more friends who would be able to pull through for me when i need it. This messenger community is a lot bigger and a lot more thoughtful than most people would think and I wanna be a bigger part of that. As for being 21 it just helps in my socialization area, I am a very shy person and hopefully having the ability to join people in these different social situations will help me grow as a person.

I believe that this will be a constant theme in my life for the next few years, change.

I have...

no will to write in here at the moment
this is pointless

FARM PARTY!!!!!

Im super excited about riding to farm party this week
wanan see the route we are taking?
http://www.usatf.org/routes/view.asp?rID=234668
well there ya go!
WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Kenyans!

oh August

It is now August if you havent realized, this means a few things
-im now 57 days away from my birthday
-that its gonna be hot for the next 31 days
-city hall will switch to efiling which will leave my wallot crippled
-farm party?
-six flags?
-family reuinion?
same old same old inside

Intelligence and my State of Apathy

Am I in a muck? I'm wiping away the haze of this everyday routine to realize my repetitiveness. It's almost as if I am affixed to this carousel that is my everyday life, a horse that only longs to be free and explore whats on the other side of the horizon. What is it that affixes me to this routine, friends, a well paying job, or some sort of fear? I am pretty sure these are the main factors but there's another chain holding me back, its myself. I hate tyo say that it is becasue I am lazy or a procrastinator but these may be true and I am kind of afraid of that fact. I dont wanna be the only thing holding myself back when it comes to my future. Its times like these that I rethink a lot of my decisions and generally ask myself
"Where did I wanna be going in life and where am I right now?"

blah...

Im too lazy right now to write anything intellectual in here
so im gonna resort o bad spelling, grammatical errors and breif statements.

-So happy to have Savanah!!!
-cant seem to remember when i make plans, problem?
-ive become oh so apthetic to everything
-I miss a good nights sleep
-i hate capitalizing my "i" when refer to myself in sentences
-i love cooking my own food
-fuck this whole boring routine

oh....

TOMORROW!!!!!!!

HOLY IMAX BATMAN

So I finally got to see the Dark Knight last night, in IMAX! I do believe that it was worth staying up late and it was definitely worth all $10 hell I wouldve paid $20to see this movie. Im sure ill feel like a broken record to everyone when I say that Heath Ledger was amazing in this movie as the Joker and to describe how multi-faceted his playing of the Joker was would take forever. So I think that the word amazing sums up his acting in this movie fairly. I would love to ramble on further about how good this movie was but I got 4 hours of sleep last night and im about to pass out at the dispatch desk.

DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Savanah the catahoula dog iss miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiineeeeeee!!!!
shes being fixed today and she should be all healed in a week and then the foster family is gonna bring her to me and shell be alll mineeeeeeee forever!!!!!!!!
so exciteddddddd

ever..

wish that one person would just drop off the face of the earth?

I do.

Training ridetastic

Last night I went on a sweet training ride with Julius and Ansel and some random dude we met up with Danny. It kicked off at 6:30 and we decided riding to Valley Forge would be nice and so we pedaled our way towards manayunk and up Ridge Ave which was the only real climb of the entire ride. This is where Julius decided he would just meet up with us in Valley Forge and took the easier route through Manayunk to the trail. So it was Ansel, Danny and myself from there on out to VF and we were cooking out there. Danny was the only one with a bike computer so he was keeping us up on how fast we wre traveling and all the distance info. On our way out there he said we were pulling each other at anywhere between 24 and 28mph, which is peloton speed! This got me super excited because these are the sort of numbers im looking for when it comes to easing into the amateur scene in cycling. Of course I still have a ways to go before I can actually feel confident with the peloton. Here's a rundown on my goals:

-Improve power on my pedaling
-Endurance needs to be increased which requires lots more long rides on my part.
-I need new cycling shoes, a helmet and perhaps some new clipless pedals.
-To do at least 3 loooooong rides a week after work, Vf seems reasonable but may get repetitive so I'm gonna have to look up some good cycling routes that i can really open up on
-Improve nutrition, my diet is horrendous

I feel like those are reasonable goals for the future, now to muster up the motivation. Any inspiring words?

WEEKEND UPDATE!

My weekend was pretty much amazing! Lets do a brief recap:

-Donovan and I got 2nd place overall and 1st fixed in Rocky
(the excitement still hasn't worn off!!)
-Tandemonium was amazing, 11 tandems on the track at once?
-Talked to Julius and I'm doing a training ride tonight
-Dinner at the High Note was delicious but they were a little rude to us
-Got in contact with the guy who's fostering Savanah the catahoula dog!

-Sunday included my favorite thing, milkshakes and movies on the couch. It was nice to relax.

In the end it ended up being a pretty good weekend, theres definitely a few things i would change but then it wouldn't of been the same I guess...

This week seems as though it will zoom on by, Ive got plans for most of the week including a training ride tonight which I'm kinda excited for. Tomorrow Savanah is coming to visit which means adopting a dog is becoming a reality! and Thursday is always fun because its pay day and I'm actually saving money despite the abysmal check I received last week for the week off I had.

I cant say that im in a bad mood because a lot of good is happening but I seem to be in a state of numbness and Im not sure how I feel about it.

Heres to change?

ROCKY!

Im so excitedddd!!!!!!!
I love racing

The Rapture

Lately I've been having really vivid dreams that surprisingly I remember most of when I wake up. There isn't much of a theme to them but they are all super realistic and usually kinda scary.

Last night was no exception.

I'm not to sure how the dream started out but as it started to get realistic I remember more. I remember being in a building on the ground floor with a few close friends and family and the whole city beginning to freak out. In the dream there was all sorts of weird camera angles of what was going on outside kinda like when some amateur picks up a camera and tries to fill some crazy shit but can't really find it in the viewfinder. Just as the camera looks up to the sky theres this huge message going across the sky, kinda like subtitles for God. The message goes on to say how this is the end of the world and so on and so on rapture rapture blah blah. This is when everyone starts to really freak out and I feel as though this dream was taking place on a certain date that made the dream me feel as though this was appropriate on said date but I just cant remember that detail. Although everyone is freaking out nothing too big is going on outside that makes it feel rapturey until... in the same shaky camera view, the city that I am in (which is made up of Philadelphia and I suppose some other subconscious cities) begins to crumble and fall apart. I think crumble isn't the best word to describe it because its almost like crucial parts to the buildings were just disappearing but still falling apart at the same time if that makes any sense at all. I remember that in the dream I don't firmly have a belief in a God that is vengeful and all seeing but I clearly said "Fuck, now i have to repent or I'm going to hell." haha I love dream me, hes so funny. The dream continues on with me preparing to be taken away the whole time hoping that when I get taken away that its not in some violent way. Me and several other friends seem to go back and forth from house to house collecting things? Like when we get taken away we want certain things to go with us? Real weird... but the rest of the dream is a little hazy to me at the moment, I do know I woke up before I was taken away so the there was no real "ending" to my dream unfortunately.

I'm still taken back about how realistic the dream was and how my emotions inside the dream felt very real. I was genuinely scared when buildings were collapsing and people were dying. Although the dream wasn't lucid I feel as though it was very close, I just wish I could know so much more about the sub-conscious and its involvement in my dreams.
That is it for now.

WOOO

I was just stretching this morning and...
I TOUCHED MY TOES!
all this stretching is paying off
I cant really remember the last time I was able to do so
so excited!!

fucking dubai man

http://www.dynamicarchitecture.net/Dubai-Video/Dubai_640x360.html

I will rant about this later

oh and yes it is real

smoking

Ive noticed recently that a lot of people who I've known in the past have taken up smoking. These are all people who I would never think to take up such a nasty habit. Its definitely a shame because deep down I feel sorry for them because the habit is just so stupid.

On the other hand, my dad has quit smoking just about 4 months now and I couldnt of been more proud of him. He was on a daily regimen of a pack a day at least and all for what? You get absolutely NOTHING out of smoking, its all mental. "Oh I feel relaxed and less stressed now that Ive had that ciggarette." No, you now smell awful and not only have you wasted 4-7 dollars of your money youve received nothing out of it. I love looking at the numbers, a pack of Marlboro reds costs just about $4.20 and say you smoke a pack a day, thats $1533 a year. That is groceries for the whole year. Thats a real nice trip to the bahamas. Thats paying off your gas or electric for a whole year. Thats a super nice bike with all those nice parts youve always wanted but cant understand why you can never afford it.

As you can see I feel strongly about this. I dont know why people start, it must be the "cool" appeal to it all, or even the sex appeal. I simply just dont get it, this doesnt mean im not friends with people who smoke because thats their choice but when I am around to see someone start smoking it just really gets me going. I understand addiction, I have become well versed in what the effects are and I hate when someone openlyy decides "Hey, I want to take up a habit in which I will definitely regret and even though most people wont admit it, they will think less of me."

Ughhhh I could go on for days about how much I hate smoking, gross...

fast paced

Im back from the Tour of PA and it feels as though ive hit the ground running. Ive been flooded with some income that I hopefully will delve out accordingly. I need a new laptop and that will most likely be first on the agenda which means a trip to springboard is in order. Hopefully I will be able to get a sweet used laptop for cheap and perhaps save some of that money for the IRS. Also in order is setting up tattoo appointments for marielle and steve thats always nice to have a little extra money in my pocket for a few hours of work I love to do. Also Marielle is gonna give me a bunch of tattoo equipment in exchange for the tattoo work most important of which is a shader which I need desperately. Me and Chris may be planning a party for the 4th of July where the theme to it is to get Jim drunk. This is still in the earliest of planning stages. There is also Jessie's race Saturday in which I will be working a checkpoint instead of racing. I feel as though i should be racing because I have Rocky the very next weekend in which I wanna be in tip top shape for, Im looking to win somethign this year and im still debating on whether or not to ride my road or track bike. Maybe ill buy a chain this week and ride my bomber pro around seeing as how its basically done except for wheels and clips which ill just take off my marinoni for a bit to ride around. I plan on getting myself together this summer, show some responsibility. Ohhhhhh and im gonna go look at dogs this weekend hopefullyyyy!!!!

:)

Planet Earth!

Yesterday my copy of Planet Earth on Bluray came in the mail!

So when I get it out of the box and put it in the ps3 it begins to play and then.... I get an error message, i begin to think the worst, this chump from amazon got me for 60 bucks. All i could think of was the long phone calls trying to reach someone who could help me geta new copy of planet earth when all I wanna do is just watch animals in super awesome high def. So there me and Chris are, looking through the internet to try and figure out whats a matter and im reading all these horror stories about people who cant get bluray discs to play in the ps3 and i begin to freak out a little inside. WHY OH WHY MUST YOU MOCK ME PS3!!?!??? I finally take some initiative and try the old turn off and turn back on trick. In goes the disc again... playing.......... no signs of error yet......and we have title screen!!!!
it was pretty much the highlight of my day, and I continued to watch 4 hours of beautiful high def animal wonderfulness.

P.S. have you ever actually felt a bluray disc? they feel amazing

To Do List:

1. Buy sketchbook, preferably 8 1/2x11 so theres more art inside said sketchbook. Once bought, I am to fill with amazing art to take around to tattoo shops in an effort to get an apprenticeship somehow. Also collab with chris for couch painting.

2. Take full advantage of finally having healthcare as of July 1st. Doctors appontments and dental visits here I come!

3. Pay the IRS all my money, this requires a strict $5 a day budget and pack lunches.

4. Finish Bomber Pro, all I need is rims, spokes, chain, and tires. This will somehow need to be planned around paying the government money. Perhaps bartering?

5. Ride my bike... A LOT! Im a little tired of 4th place and I need a new bag. Hopefully Rocky VI may be that shining moment.

6. Have fun whilest accomplishing said list

The Happening

Last night I went to see The Happening. First off I would like to say the movie sucked in a way that after you go and see it you are like, "What the fuck? What was that supposed to mean?". But I also noticed the genius behind making this movie, even though it wasnt up to par with a huge blockbuster movie it has the funding of one. Which means that M. Night purposefully made a B movie with the funding of a huge movie which I personally found awesome. I know this will definitely go way over a lot of peoples heads and they will think this movie made no sense or simply sucked but I understood Mr.Shyamalan and I will definitely go out and buy this movie on dvd when it comes out.

A Tad Sad...

So everyone leaves for Toronto today, I will not be one of them. Jorge got a job at timecycle so he wasnt able to get the time off seeing as how he starts today. Its probably for the better though seeing as how I have like no money at the moment, like a month ago i had such a good hold on my finances and now my bank account is overdrawn? huh? It has to do with the fact that I got approved for healthcare through Aetna and they take money out when you are approved. This situation is also another win/lose situation which seems to be the theme to the month of June for me.
I wish July would get here already, I want a dog!

Back to earth

Finally back from working the races. I had fun doing it like i do every year, its my vacation each year but its still work none the less so I am very exhausted right now. Allentown was probably my favorite race out of the 3 this year, it was an amzing course with probably my favorite finish ive seen in a long time. 100 some odd riders sprint towars the finish line together with the wind at their backs made for a 40-50mph sprint to the finish line, AMAZING. Reading was ok, nothing to special. Philly was probably the biggest pain in the ass, with weather that didnt drop below 90 and some management issues that made everythign harder,made for a very mediocre Philly race this year. Its only like 2 weeks before we go on the road again o set up the tour of PA. I always love settingup new races, its always exciting.

As for right now, im working, its hot, and I get to go see Conan tomorrow in New York. Should be sweet.

art!

I really wanna find an art class i can take like once a week, preferably at night and preferably a figure drawing/painting class. I feel like ive lost touch with the fundamentals of my art and I struggle to translate the ideas in my head onto paper because of this.

I love my art and I always welcome improvement on everything I do. But lately i feel as though ive been slacking when it comes to my art, these are the dark ages of me as an artist but I feel a Renaissance approaching where I am painting much more, tattooing much more and in turn this all makes me feel so much better about myself. I place all the blame for this artistic renaissance on my new house and being around another artisticly driven mind more often.

Art Plans:
- Go to some life drawing workshops, they are scheduled on Mondays at the sketch club from 630-930 which works perfect.
- Collaborate with chris on some sketches towards the couch painting of the skyline.
- Do LOTS more tattoos, especially working on Mattys sleeve more often.
- Explore the idea of a set of pieces based on Mucha's women but more modern. This would accomplish 2 things, help acquire a style that of Mucha and to decorate the house better.

DUBAI

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Once again Dubai is pretty much gonna take over the world at some point or horribly fail. One or the other

Hectic!!

Lately ive been able to actually plan out whole weeks with things to do, it seems to make my week go much faster if i have everything Im going to do that week all planned out and sometimes even entered into my phone haha. I dont seem to have backup plans though, like if something falls through I just end up sitting on my couch watching tv, eating cheezits, and making sure Lux doesnt eat my cheezits.

See Im a relaxed kind of guy, i like relaxation after ive worked 10 hours each day. Im not a fan of things stressing me out, like overactive dogs (why I want a Great dane) or people who wanna rush everything thats going on. Take it easy people, theres plenty of time to get these things done, and the longer we take the better it will be. Anywho, im not too sure if this new way of having my week jampacked with potential plans is good or bad. One the one side it is super productive for me and like i said it makes my week go by much much faster. On the other side it kinda stresses me out and for some reason it has me going to sleep at like 12 o clock when i have to wake up at 630 each morning. I dunno... Im gonna let it play out for a little while and see how this goes, mayeb after June itll get a little easier.

Speaking of June, that whole month is going to be busyyyyyyy/relaxing?? i dunno lets take a look at my schedule:

All of the days outlined in red are the ones that I will be WORKING on the stage crew, this means i will not be getting my regular income as a bike messenger although i will be getting a few checks during the month of June probably not much though. I will be in Lehigh Valley, Reading and Philly for the 2-8 setting up those races, then i go back to work as a messenger that Monday for 2 days haha then that Wednesday which is in green I am traveling up to New York to see Conan with Chris, Cait, and Chris' friend Brad. The very next day I get in a station wagon with Jorge and a few other messengers and we make the trek up to toronto for the Messenger Worlds http://www.cmwc2008.com/ where I will be able to drink legally and basically have an awesome time with messengers from everywhere in the entire world for a weekend. this trip is represented in blueeee. I get back on Monday night hopefully after the 12 hour drive from Canada to Philly and then I go back to work at 7 the next day where I work as a messenger for the next 4 days. The very next week is the tour of PA where we do the whole stage crew thing from Philly to Pittsburgh in a few different stages. I get back to Philly on the 30th only to go back to work Tuesday. This is all my vacation... even though its work Ill still be glad to get away from the normal 7-5 grind each day.

Im a busy busy busy man
If your trying to hang out call my secretary she'll try and pencil you in.

productivity

I love that my new home is influencing me to be productive. Ive started drawing a bit more, mostly for tattoos but the ideas are coming out super original and in my own style which I love the most. Currently im working on 2 things, a treasure chest in a very traditional style, with some realistic looking skulls balancing each side of it out and im also working a joke piece. The Joke piece is for a guy who has nothing but humorous tattoos all over his body, I dont think he has a single serious tattoo on his body. Well this one is two zombie Harlem Globetrotters, one with a fro and sideburns and one with a fro and a moustache. One of them is going for the layup and one is going in to block the shot and the numbers on their jerseys are 6 & 9. This one i havent been working on as much because the persons tattoo appointment isnt set in stone yet where as the treasure chest tattoo is part of an ongoing sleeve im working on, maybe ill have some pictures up soon.
Anyways, this is all becasue im in a very relaxing environment in the new house. I feel good things a comin!

blanket hog

Lux=blanket hog

Love, a fickle thing?

This is something I think about often and always wanted to write about. The topic is young love.

Its a weird topic to talk about to say the least, some young people these days are very willing to open themselves up to these feelings and then there are many who have never even felt that way about another person and believe that these feelings cant exist. I personally am part of the first category, Ive opened myself up to a few girls in my past and its always wonderful when you do. For those of you who have no clue whats its like to "love" someone other than your family its quite hard to put into words, you cherish everything about the other person, you enjoy their warmth, their kiss, their laughter and when you look them in the eyes you feel trapped in that moment with them forever. These feelings are what i live for, as you can see im a romantic. But theres the harsh truth that you can love someone and that person will not be the person you grow old with, thats just not how it works and this is the reason why people ask

"Is it better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved at all?"

I dont know how I feel about this, the heartbreak is always the hardest part of noticing the two of you aren't meant to be with each other forever as true "soulmates". As a matter of fact is anybody true soulmates? With 6,668,006,437 people on the planet as of this morning couldnt there be more than one person that you could have these feelings for? Of course there could. Why does one need to look so far down the line when spending time with someone, couldnt you just enjoy each other in the time you have whilest still in love? Why does everything need to be so focused on the future when no one knows if they will see tomorrow.

Life is the one that is fickle, not love.

Miserable

Today I went to work....

Today it rained...

Today it was freezing..

Today I was miserable.

Iron Chef Justin

I watched Iron Chef on saturday (sidenote: I love having cable now)
I discovered a few things:

1. Food network makes me hungry as hell
2. I can't cook, but i wanna learn so bad
3. Goat heads when they are skinned look really creepy

Someone teach me to cook?

Vermonster anyone?

Lately ive been wanting to get a group together and tackle a Vermonster from Ben & Jerrys. Whats a Vermonster You say??? Well its just one of God's greatest creations right before Jesus and right after the all you can eat steak dinner. Here are the ingredients to a Vermonster:

-20 Scoops of ice cream(4 1/2 pounds)
-10 scoops of chopped walnuts
-5 scoops of fresh whipped cream
-4 bananas
-4 scoops of hot fudge
-5 chocolate chip cookies
-2 scoops of m&ms
-2 scoops of reeses
-2 scoops of chocolate jimmies
-1 giant homemade brownie

They take all this and throw it into a bucket for your eating delight see below.

Im not so sure about this because in the back of my head its saying "try and eat this yourself" but the logical side is like "theres no fucking way your eating that much ice cream" This would make the perfect challenge if it were maybe a little bit smaller in size, maybe 10 scoops? I dunno, but someday soon i wanna get one of these and slay it like the delicious dragon it is.

Weekend Escapades

It was finally moving weekend!!!! Friday night after work we moved some of the bigger things over to the house in one trip, like the bed junk and some other boxes. As we were packing things in, my old roomate and a bunch of our friends were partying like there was no tomorrow which is kind of symbolic of my whole year at 1328. My roommates there were awesome I just can't live in a party house anymore, i love my quiet "me" time and I will definitely have plenty of that in my new home. the best part was when we came back from dropping things off and fireworks had recently been lit off inside the house, catching a trash can on fire and one blew up in Donovan's face. This made it feel so much nicer that i was finally getting out. Me and Melissa prepared for an early morning to make our way up to trexlertown for the bike swap to buy an unnecessarily large amount of bike parts, oh and to sell a few too! I came away from the swap with a few small things and this!

I absolutely love that this is now mineeeeeeeeeeeee, ill post some finished pictures when i complete it! The PBMA did pretty well at the swap also making almost 600 dollars off of shirts and other various merch.

Saturday we also finished moving the rest of my stuff, a very tired but veryhelpful melissa stuck through it so we can be done and i could get settled in all day sunday. If you seen the stairs in the new house youll be at awe when i said that i got my queen sized mattress up to the second floor all by myself!! Sunday consisted of unpacking, naps and hanging with Chris and Cait. The new house is amazing, theres so much potential in it to make it a real home to come back to at the end of the day. I think with the next check im gonna buy some painting supplies and paint the living room and my bedroom, not sure what colors yet.

Anyways, it was a super awesome weekend full of super awesome people and especially Melissa for being so helpful.
Cheers!

He say she say

Im sorry if this blog has become videos that im in love with, but if you have 8 minutes of free time then you should definitely watch this. Nature is amazing, especially life in Africa. At 3:30 it gets pretty crazy but then at 4:32 shit gets real. Its impressive how strength in numbers can overwhelm anything. But this is my video of the day enjoy it guys!

As for other things, today is friday finally and im gonna start moving my stuff tonight!! Then tomorrow is the swap and a super early start to the day so we can get up there to sell stuff for the PBMA and myself. I will be purchasing at least one thing tomorrow and thatll be the pursuit frame i rambled on about in a post a while back, its a strange occurance that the guy selling it will be right down the street from the swap!!!! Such a good weekend coming up, im gonna be so tired but so happy on monday.

Smiling is definitely something i miss, this week has been so great :)

i kinda

want a pug named morrissey
or
a great dane named whatever



i really want a great dane, my new house may be too small for one
:'(

3 FULL DAYS OF SHADE!!!!!

Not bad for passing out

This is from the night before Beerster when i drank way too much and passed out. I made it a point to take off my shoes so i at least wouldnt get written on, i think this isnt too bad haha. I dont remember any of this happening, especially the part at the end where i get up and try and fight everyone
wooooooo way too much to drink.

eeeeeeeeeep!!!

oooooo i havent been so excited for a movie in a long time, especially a batman movie
you have to admit, heath looks literally insane in this movie, what a movie to end with.

Im also mad that i missed this
http://whysoserious.com/itsallpartoftheplan/
it was today here in Philly and i missed it, i even had a radio and a dispatcher that could walk me through
while in front of a computer
grrrrrr
I also missed the Harvey Dent political van passing out free stuff
boo earns guys

mmm mmm good

My weekend was awesome despite the significant hangover sunday.
Friday I got productive and picked up boxes and such to put my things in with melissa and her tiny car. Then i spent the whole night putting my things into said boxes. You never really know how much crap you have until you have to move it all and ive heard that with each move it gets a little harder because you have more and more crap thats yours. This i will learn because the new house is basically void of any furniture because jorge doesnt like to own that sort of stuff, but I love looking around for new comfy things especially when its gonna be going into a home that will be awesome!!
Saturday I sat out the Ghetto Pass race and optioned for sleeping in and packing some more things. Later me, CJ, and donovan went to CJ's workshop and worked on tall bikes for Beerster, this didnt go so well because of our poor planning we only got to finish one tall bike. Afterwards we went and picked up the 750 beers that would supply a Sunday filled with free beer for the masses and people getting hurt. The night would be spent drinking beer, maddog, and cleaning out two bottles of saki. Also we painted the 666 beers to be used for Beerster all sorts of pastel colors. At some point I sneak away to pass out on the floor carefully making sure i take my shoes off so i dont get drawn on but I end up getting awaken with one of the jousting poles which i didnt remember at all until i seen the video the very next day. All and all a very good time.
Sunday was beerster, for those of you not so familiar with this i will explain. Beerster is a bike club event thrown where a predetermined amount of beer (this year was 666 beers) are painted pastel colors and hidden amongst nature upon Lemon Hill. This is accompanied by drunken feats of strength including a beer grab, tall bike jousting, and many other improv events which usually end up in beer being spilt everywhere and injuries galore for example last years tall bike tire swing from last year:

make sure to watch part 2 for the following concussion. This year was almost 3 times as big than last year with almost every single beer being found and drank throughout the entire day, no serious injuries like broken limbs and all but there will be quite a few people sore from all the hucklebucking. I struggled with my hangover all day but managed to shake it off at some point during the event but i remained sober throughout the rest of the day which was pretty sweet. The day ended with a ton of drunk people, qdoba, a super awesome massage, and a very happy me.
It is now monday morning, its raining and it will all day at work but somehow im not as bummed as usual because its 4 days til I move and i know for sure this week will go super fast! Happy monday yall

P.S.

dog update

i fell asleep
only to wake up at 5 to him barking again
who the fuck leaves their dog outside at 5 in the morning
he doesnt stop barking at all, ever!!DKAJKJLAJAJ:ADjlfksafsag;a293424
ughh

dogs

have been barking nonstop for the past 3 hours
their owners wont let them inside
i wanna free them
before my headache gets worse

About Schmidt

Yesterday this movie was on my mind, mainly because i used to fall asleep with it on at melissa's all the time. We were too lazy to get a new movie to watch and her tv could only play movies. Anyways back to my thoughts, this movie is actually really great for those of you who havent seen it.

The movie starts off with Warren Schmidt(Jack Nicholson) going into retirement and shortly after his wife dies and while coping with this he has to deal with his daughter marrying some lowlife who he doesnt approve of at all. Early into the movie we realize behind his apathetic front theres a very angry man whos fed up with a lot of things. But instead of letting everyone know how angry he is he decides to express it in letters to his foster child in Africa, Ndugu. But after his wife dies he realizes how much he really misses everything about her and how hes basically accomplished nothing in his life, and how his big plans have turned into nothing without him even noticing. This turns Warren into a very distraught emotional wreck, one of my favorite scenes is where hes finally starting to break down in front of us, not just in the narrative, he is going to shave and hes just rubbing shaving cream all over his face and you can tell he doesnt know what to do with himself.

Thing about this movie is that i can understand somewhat how he feels. Its usually in relationships where you see someone sooooo much and you spend so much time with them that you start to notice their quirks. Like you notice they make funny noises while they sleep, they chew with their mouths open just weird quirks that shouldnt matter but thing is youre with them so much it starts to get to you and you forget all the good times, the perfect moments where you notice how much you love that person. I'm an attentitive person so all these little things get to me just because I like to listen. Then out of nowhere you lose this person to death, addiction or just breaking up, then you get thrown into a rut where all you can key in on is the good times when they were there in your life and if you can you try so hard to get them back usually to no avail. Human thought and emotion are so interesting to me, the way they can work together and work against each other all in the same situation.
I dunno...
this is just one of the many things i get to think about while riding my bike at work, i think of so much while on my bike i dont always get it all down in the blog but im gonna try.

HOOT!

Heres just a few of my sweet owl chestpiece






the shading is gonna feel sweet!

R.I.P.

The computer monitor for my work computer died this morning when i was using it. I was just starting to make it be awesome you know decorating it and making it my own. How dare he leave me so soon, he was so young only like 10 years of age.
So long good friend
R.I.P.

shitty work day

Its 2:39 PM, ive done 3 jobs today thats like 8 bucks in my pocket.
Im ready to go home
:(

CONVENTION!!!

This weekend is the tattoo convention, i spent pretty much ALL of my day yesterday getting tattooed and hanging out at the Scapegoat tattoo booth. Its funny how the art of tattooing goes underappreciated because of a widespread amount of shitty tattoos. Of course there will always be shitty tattoos and shitty tattoo artists but if you go deeper there's a slew of artists who do it to express themselves in another way than oil paints and color pencils even though these tools are still key to a tattoo. I personally get tattoos to showcase an artists' talent for life, i appreciate that they take their art seriously and don't just settle for tattooing stars and kanji all day on douchebags who get a tattoo just for the experience of walking into a shop and pointing at something on the wall. Its hard for me to sit back and let my friends get shitty tattoos when i know better, why dont they know better? Ill never know.

Scapegoat is one of those shops where the art of tattooing is taken seriously and it shows in the talent of brian and ryan, both of their portfolios are amazing and they have one thing that most shops don't have, they are personable. When you're sitting down with someone who's digging needles into your skin and marking you for life you want someone who you can hold a conversation with, someone who can keep you relaxed because the worst thing to be during a tattoo is tense and nervous. My favorite shop used to be Deep Six where i got my arm done but Scapegoat is giving it a run for its money unfortunately they are located in Portland OR so it'll be kinda hard to refer them to you guys.

I currently don't have any pictures of what i got but i will soon and i will def post some on here so you guys can see. Its gonna be amazing once its finished and I'm gonna have to plan a trip out to Portland I'm thinking some time in June to get more work done, Brian is also gonna be doing some guest spots in New York some time in the future so i think I'll make a trip up there for some more work when he's in town. Brian is so good i may have him be the one to do my other sleeve because he's not only familiar with Alphonse Mucha, he's one of his favorite artists and he even has "winter" by Mucha hanging in his house which is coincidentally part of what i want on my sleeve. I was originally gonna have Paul who did my other arm do my sleeve but i have a feeling he wouldn't be as excited to do an amazing art nouveau piece because he's more of a horror portrait type of guy which means i may have Brian do it for me.

Anyway im just sitting here waiting to go back to the convention with chris, im trying to enter my sleeve in the tattoo contest!!!
wooooooo

I got 99 problems

The office is super boring this morning like usual. It feels like ive looked at the entire internet whilest sitting here for 4 hours in the morning each day. This i know is a stretch to say the least but nothing seems to be able to capture my interest on here. Although the other day i spent my whole morning on www.skyscraperpage.com because i have an obsession with tall buildings but im terribly afraid of heights haha. While I was exploring skyscraperpage the city of Dubai caught my interest, that place is so interesting. Did you know that almost a quarter of all building construction in the world is in Dubai and that like almost half the cranes in the world are there too. Of course these arent terribly accurate because i read this a few days ago and cant seem to find my way back to the page i read these facts on, but its still amazing how much is going on there. They are currentyl building the tallest building in the world there



Look at all those fucking cranes

To put this building in perspective for those of you only familiar with philadelphia, the burj dubai is gonna be 807 meters tall, where the comcast center here in Philadelphia is only 297 meters tall. So every time i look up at the comcast center i think of what it must be like to be a messenger in Dubai and look up at the burj, thats like 2 1/2 comcast centers tall. This is the diagram of Philly: http://skyscraperpage.com/diagrams/?c326
and heres Dubai:
http://skyscraperpage.com/diagrams/?c23
Now youll notice that Dubai has one building proposed that is even bigger than the burj, this building is the Al Burj and its slated to be tall as fuck. Its gonna be the first building to break the 1000 meter mark. Heres some comparison


Fucking crazy right? Imagine taking one of those elevators, of course they would use high speed elevators but still it would take foreverrrrrrr. Look at how tiny the burj dubai looks comapred to it. Theres gotta be bike messengers in dubai with all those buildings everywhere right? I could see everything being delivered by car though, i even went on google maps and poked around dubai on there, unfortunately no street view yet haha. Seems like theres a shit ton of roads to remember there, they use number streets much like philly but theres different sections to the city that all use their own number streets and they go into the 100s. I think i could swing it though, my brain has a knack for remembering streets and buildings and floors of clients.
I dont know where i was originally going with this post, it seems all my post just seem to wander off. So im gonna end this post with a list!

1. Philly should build more tall ass buildings, the ACC tower is a big step but still is no 1000 meter building
2. Check out skyscraperpage.com itll give you something to do for a few hours
3. Im terribly bored and cant wait to see everyone tonight at the art feast and film
4. but a bitch aint one?

wooooooooooooo!!
Ric flair!

IRS woes

All of my money has gone to the IRS and the city for taxes and will continue to go to these various places for just about the next 2 months unfortunately. I dont know how much this tax experience has taught me, its definitely put a lot of my spending into perspective. For example i used to get a huge breakfast each morning across the street from the office and it would cost me soooo much each morning when i could just buy cereal or bagels and eat at my house in the morning, the same thing goes with my lunch and snacks throughout the day. All of my spending on food needs to be tightened up and the realization of this and moving out should get my butt into gear because right now the kitchen at the house im in is super gross and i never wanna even keep food in there let alone cook here. Another problem i have is with ebay, i have an insanely unhealthy addiction to buying things on ebay even a ton of things i dont even need. Like i have these wheels that i dont even have a bike that they fit, they just sit around in my house doing no good to anyone. Thats basically where im going with this whole entire article. there is the most amazing bike on ebay currently (http://cgi.ebay.com/Marinoni-Track-pursuit-frame-fork-wheel-dura-ace-hub_W0QQitemZ130214903984QQihZ003QQcategoryZ159089QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem) and thing is, the wheels i have fit that bike. Buy it for me?

convention!

The tattoo convention is this weekend!!!!! Im super excited because I'm getting tattooed this time around and its gonna be my whole entire chest outline in one sitting. Brian from Scapegoat Tattoo in Portland (http://scapegoattattoo.com/) is the man who will be tattooing it on me. Brian is good friends with my roommate donovan and ive had the pleasure with hanging out with these guys at the Boston convention where donovan got his sleeve outlined in one day. Sooooo excited because one im getting tattooed for this first time in like a year and two this give me an excuse to make a trip out to portland sometime later in the year to get it all finished up. Im not gonna explain what im getting ill just post pictures later on because its gonna be too sweet for words. woooooooooo!!!

eagles

Trade lito sheppard for christ sakes
or do something productive.
I know something is going on i just like to be informed
2 weeks til the draft!

multivitamins

My change jug is so deceptive, last time I went to empty out my change at Commerce bank i went with an open mind thinking maybe ill get a hundred bucks out of it. Turns out i ended up having about 300 in the jug, surprise surprise. This time I go relying on getting just about that much because it seemed to me theres was just about the same amount in the jug, but alas i end up with 150 dollars. Quite the upset this was because i was kind of relying on the change jug to put me over the top on paying my taxes. So you know what i did? I spent the change money on myself, yes i did and you know what i bought? dvds and multivitamins

Im super excited about these multivitamins because they are a small step to cleaning my system up. Ive somwehat tackled getting rid of soda from my diet so far and these multivitamins are gonna kickstart my system into working order. Soon enough ill be in tip top shape, just in time for the racing season. Im looking to win this year, no mo 3rd place.

Finally, some time to think

Its definitely been a while since ive written my thoughts down in here. This is mainly because of the month of April creeping up on me so fast, one moment its january and your freezing your ass off outside hoping for some work on your bike and the next thing you know your wearing shorts and hiding from the sun.
Ive been thinking about way too much and not writing it down, its all building up inside of me. Theres so many ideas and thoughts on things floating around inside my head but i cant pin one down for the life of me. Like earlier in this entry i wanted to ramble off into oblivion about the weather and how weve had 6 inches of snow this past winter but anywho... If you know me you can probably tell something is going on inside of my head at all times im just horrible at communicating it through the spoken word, which is why im surprised i dont do this more often. I often sit back and watch myself be discounted from intelligent conversations which i could add loads of feedback to, all because of the fact that i often dont speak up or I just can't seem to find the right words to convey my opinions well.
I know what it is, its this life/lifestyle i now live. Ive been pulled out of my comfort zone full of artisticly intelligent and genuinely caring people and thrusted into a world full of coked up alcoholics who would use anyone and anything to gain a step up. I am in almost no way like these people, we have our familiarities but these familiar traits bring nothing but a few good laughs and a sense that im missing out on something bigger.
I miss my artistic friends, all of you guys from CAPA who inspired me to use my talents as much as possible. It was like we were roommates for 4 straight years and all of a sudden we all split off in our own seperate directions. Even some of you are so close to me but i cant seem to find time for you all, we are suddenly on different pages and i badly wanna come back. Im glad i didnt lose my best friend through all this whom i met at CAPA and im super psyched for May because we'll be able to hang out in more situations than when i visit on the weekends which will be amazing for my creative side and the more frequent intelligent conversations may help with my scatterbrain at the moment. I cant really remember a time in the past year or so where ive been so excited, im even paying out the ass in taxes and im still excited.
This weekend gettin my chest tattoo outlined and Jenalees art show, hopefully get to see some old friends
Next week/weekend packing and trying to raise some extra money, ya know get shit together.
Soon enough the weekend after the 1st is move time and Bike swap stuff

soooooo excited, im gonna try and write more often in here, it really helps
Bye yallss

Looking to forget...

Everytime i feel like im better, something happens that makes me rethink my sanity.
Where has my well being gone? Someone help me get away i just wanna disappear.
Brainwash me please, someone? Im trying to foget it all....

Macaroni

I missed riding my marinoni
Having the new cranks makes riding it AMAZING!
Holla!

P.P.S.

i hope my hands not fucked...
:(

P.S.

this weekend blew...

Someone told me that i will die in 5 years...

Well a bunch of people actually, all on tv and all on this one show. I love the discovery channel so much but unfortunately i do not own cable, so whenever i am in the northeast at my best friend chris' house we watch hours of it on end. This is where the prophecy of my demise was layed out for me, and actually everyone else that inhabits the same earth as I.

Let may lay this all out for you so you can all feel the same way as i do about 2012. So as many of you may all know the ancient Mayans were a very intelligent people. They did all sorts of great stuff, one of which was their calendar. The Mayan calendar has predicted all sorts of stuff that blows you away, including the lunar phases down to the day and even solar eclipses all of which were predicted TO THE DAY. So great, the Mayans created a calendar, whoopdeedo, im all set with the calendar i have it tells me when my birthday is, christmas and all the other great days in which i receive presents. Well the Mayan calendar trumps ours in one way, it has an end. The last day of the Mayan calendar is on December 21st 2012. What happens on said day? Why the abrupt end? Well my friends on this day our planet and all the other ones that reolve around our beautiful sun cross what is known as the universal equator and we actually have no clue what will happen once we cross said line. There are many theories as to what will happen when we cross this line and the most prominent one is a polar shift, this is what happens when our planet goes all caddywhompus and Philadelphia suddenly becomes beach front property where the sunny carribean used to be or hell we could even end up where Antarctica used to be (personally im hoping for some sunny real estate myself). But when this happens there will be no hiding, earthquakes and tsunamis out the whazoo, mass extinction of plants and animals and a whole array of other fantastic stuff.

So the Mayans predicted the end of our fantastic world, they are just an ancient people who probably had a hunch. Well they werent the only ones to predict the end. Ancient oracles from the earliest of recorded time have also predicted our demise, theyve even predicted things like both world wars, the rise and fall of ancient Rome, emperor Constantine BY NAME!, and the settlement of America in Virginia in the 1600s all hundred of years before any of this malarchy actually happened. But what most freaked me out was the I Ching's prophecy of the end of times.

The I Ching for those of you who dont know about it is an ancient chinese fortune telling book that was created around the time the pyramids were built, hundreds of years before Jesus was born and the Roman calendar. It involves 3 coins being thrown 6 times. After you throw the coins there is a majority of either heads or tails and then on a piece of paper you draw a complete line or a broken line as shown below:



After you have your drawing all set you open the book and find the corresponding drawing which predicts your fortune accordingly. Well recently there was a guy whose name i just cant seem to find again, he mapped out the I Ching in periods of 64 cycles of 64 periods in time beginning with the invention of I Ching a long time ago. If you plot them on a graph it shows the ups and downs of a whole timeline ona much larger scale than an individuals fortune. Its shows the fall of the Roman empire, and all the aformentioned things above. But it also has an end, just like the Mayan calendar, actually exactly like the Mayan calendar it ends on the same day December 21st 2012. Creepy huh? it definitely made my hair stand on end.

All this makes you think, many people who would never even see the day have prophecised the end of times or at least some major fucked up shit in December of 2012. Its definitely made me think, should i not care anymore about all this fucked up crap in my life, should i live life like 5 years from now it could be the end? In december of 2012 should i not buy Christmas presents? Who knows, i personally am gonna just live day by day and begin to focus on those who actually matter to me in life like my family and my very close friends. I dont have time to sweat the small stuff and the assholes who just make my life a hassle all the time because 5 years from now it may not matter what happened today or tomorrow just how i made the time i had special to myself.

been a while

Since i actually wrote anything on here, i guess since i last wrote nothings changed for me. Work work work its the story of my life. I recently had my number at work entered into the one hour hall of fame, i guess this means they respect all the hard work i put into the company and all of the sleeping in ive sacrificed for almost a year straight now. Its wearing on me though, im not as quick as i used to feel and i sure dont feel like the job is getting any better. Hell im sitting back and watching as the industry im a part of dies. Its actually not much of a slow death either. Over the past year this career has drastically changed for the worst, where there used to be plenty of work, theres now small handfulls of what used to be. Last winter it used to be worth it for the common messenger to be out in the cold windy weather everyday because he knew at the end of the week his sacrifices would be rewarded in that nice fat paycheck. But like i said, things have changed. Now everyone sits around all day freezing to death fighting over jobs that there used to be plenty of even just last year and theres nothing we can do but sit back and watch. A few of the smarter couriers have taken note of this and are looking elsewhere for new work. You just cant earn a living anymore in this industry, i guess im one of the few who has it good for the time being. I get by week to week relying on all the city hall work i do and dispatching before i hit the streets but soon enough thatll change too. City hall will soon be paperless which means no one will be needed to take things from here to there anymore, messengers will be rendered totally useless for what makes up for about 50-60% of the work that is called into the companies on a regular basis and what makes up a big chunk of their paycheck too. But hey the times are changing, these changes will make someone elses life a little easier, theres always gott be some sort of give and take somewhere and the take part is coming from us. I love my job but i dont see it lasting for me much farther than another year or so unfortunately even though i love it here. Maybe its time for a change in myself, i feel it coming but im not sure how im going to act upon it, hopefully itll be for the better.

Once again

Im tired of trying so hard anymore, im slow to warm up to people but when i finally do they end up hurting me. Its a relentless attack on my well being. time and time again i put myself out there only to be left with nothing on the other end. Maybe im too slow when it comes to feeling comfortable and I continue to implode in on myself. I blame myself for whats goign on right now. I didnt pay enough attention, maybe i didnt do something. But all i know is that i feel terrible right now and maybe its my own fault, i dunno...
:(